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from ALL THE YEAR ROUND (1866-Christmas issue)
"There's not a looking-glass in all the house, sir. It's some peculiar fancy of my master's. There isn't one in any single room in the house."
It was a dark and gloomy-looking building, and had been purchased by this Company for an enlargement of their Goods Station. The value of the house had been referred to what was popularly called "a compensation jury," and the house was called, in consequence, The Compensation House. It had become the Company's property; but its tenant still remained in possession, pending the commencement of active building operations. My attention was originally drawn to this house because it stood directly in front of a collection of huge pieces of timber which lay near this part of the Line, and on which I sometimes sat for half an hour at a time, when I was tired by my wanderings about Mugby Junction.
It was square, cold, grey-looking, built of rough-hewn stone, and roofed with thin slabs of the same material. Its windows were few in number, and very small for the size of the building. In the great blank, grey broadside, there were only four windows. The entrance-door was in the middle of the house; there was a window on either side of it, and there were two more in the single story above. The blinds were all closely drawn, and when the door was shut, the dreary building gave no sign of life or occupation.
But the door was not always shut. Sometimes it was opened from within, with a great jingling of bolts and door-chains, and then a man would come forward and stand upon the doorstep, snuffing the air as one might do who was ordinarily kept on rather a small allowance of that element. He was stout, thickset, and perhaps fifty or sixty years old--a man whose hair was cut exceedingly close, who wore a large bushy beard, and whose eye had a sociable twinkle in it which was prepossessing. He was dressed, whenever I saw him, in a greenish-brown frock-coat made of some material which was not cloth, wore a waistcoat and trousers of light colour, and had a frill to his shirt--an ornament, by the way, which did not seem to go at all well with the beard, which was continually in contact with it. It was the custom of this worthy person, after standing for a short time on the threshold inhaling the air, to come forward into the road, and, after glancing at one of the upper windows in a half mechanical way, to cross over to the logs, and, leaning over the fence which guarded the railway, to look up and down the Line (it passed before the house) with the air of a man accomplishing a self-imposed task of which nothing was expected to come. This done, he would cross the road again, and turning on the threshold to take a final sniff of air, disappeared once more within the house, bolting and chaining the door again as if there were no probability of its being reopened for at least a week. Yet half an hour had not passed before he was out in the road again, sniffing the air and looking up and down the Line as before.
It was not very long before I managed to
scrape acquaintance with this restless personage. I soon
found out that my friend with the shirt-frill was the
confidential servant, butler, valet, factotum, what you
will, of a sick gentleman, a Mr. Oswald Strange, who had
recently come to inhabit the house opposite, and concerning
whose history my new acquaintance, whose name I ascertained
was Masey, seemed disposed to be somewhat communicative. His
master, it appeared, had come down to this place, partly for
the sake of reducing his establishment--not, Mr. Masey was
swift to inform me, on economical principles, but because
the poor gentleman, for particular reasons, wished to have
few dependents about him--partly in order that he might be
near his old friend, Dr. Garden, who was established in the
neighbourhood, and whose society and advice were necessary
to Mr. Strange's life. That life was, it appeared, held by
this suffering gentleman on a precarious tenure. It was
ebbing away fast with each passing hour. The servant already
spoke of his master in the past tense, describing him to me
as a young gentleman not more than five-and- It was during my second or third interview
with the old fellow that he uttered the words quoted at the
beginning of this plain narrative.
"Not such a thing as a looking-glass in
all the house," the old man said, standing beside my
piece of timber, and looking across reflectively at the
house opposite. "Not one."
"In the sitting-rooms, I suppose you
mean?"
"No, sir, I mean sitting-rooms and
bedrooms both; there isn't so much as a shaving-glass as big
as the palm of your hand anywhere."
"But how is it?" I asked. "Why
are there no looking-glasses in any of the rooms?"
"Ah, sir!" replied Masey,
"that's what none of us can ever tell. There is the
mystery. It's just a fancy on the part of my master. He had
some strange fancies, and this was one of them. A pleasant
gentleman he was to live with, as any servant could desire.
A liberal gentleman, and one who gave but little trouble;
always ready with a kind word, and a kind deed, too, for the
matter of that. There was not a house in all the parish of
St. George's (in which we lived before we came down here)
where the servants had more holidays or a better table kept;
but, for all that, he had his queer ways and his fancies, as
I may call them, and this was one of them. And the point he
made of it, sir," the old man went on; "the extent
to which that regulation was enforced, whenever a new
servant was engaged; and the changes in the establishment it
occasioned! In hiring a new servant, the very first
stipulation made, was that about the looking-glasses. It was
one of my duties to explain the thing, as far as it could be
explained, before any servant was taken into the house.
'You'll find it an easy place,' I used to say, 'with a
liberal table, good wages, and a deal of leisure; but
there's one thing you must make up your mind to; you must do
without looking-glasses while you're here, for there isn't
one in the house, and, what's more, there never will
be.'"
"But how did you know there never would
be one?" I asked.
"Lor' bless you, sir! If you'd seen and
heard all that I'd seen and heard, you could have no doubt
about it. Why, only to take one instance:--I remember a
particular day when my master had occasion to go into the
housekeeper's room, where the cook lived, to see about some
alterations that were making, and when a pretty scene took
place. The cook--she was a very ugly woman, and awful
vain--had left a little bit of a looking-glass, about six
inches square, upon the chimney-piece; she had got it
surreptitious, and kept it always locked up; but
she'd left it out, being called away suddenly, while
titivating her hair. I had seen the glass, and was making
for the chimney-piece as fast as I could; but master came in
front of it before I could get there, and it was all over in
a moment. He gave one long piercing look into it, turned
deadly pale, and seizing the glass, dashed it into a hundred
pieces on the floor, and then stamped upon the fragments and
ground them into powder with his feet. He shut himself up
for the rest of that day in his own room, first ordering me
to discharge the cook, then and there, at a moment's
notice."
"What an extraordinary thing!" I
said, pondering.
"Ah, sir," continued the old man,
"it was astonishing what trouble I had with those
women- I sat for some time lost in amazement, and
staring at my companion. My curiosity was powerfully
stimulated, and the desire to learn more was very strong
within me.
"Had your master any personal
defect," I inquired, "which might have made it
distressing to him to see his own image reflected?"
"By no means, sir," said the old
man. "He was as handsome a gentleman as you would wish
to see: a little delicate-looking and care-worn, perhaps,
with a very pale face; but as free from any deformity as you
or I, sir. No, sir, no: it was nothing of that."
"Then what was it? What is it?" I
asked, desperately. "Is there no one who is, or has
been, in your master's confidence?"
"Yes, sir," said the old fellow,
with his eyes turning to that window opposite. "There
is one person who knows all my master's secrets, and this
secret among the rest."
"And who is that?"
The old man turned round and looked at me
fixedly. "The doctor here," he said. "Dr.
Garden. My master's very old friend."
"I should like to speak with this
gentleman," I said, involuntarily.
"He is with my master now,"
answered Masey. "He will be coming out presently, and I
think I may say he will answer any question you may like to
put to him." As the old man spoke, the door of the
house opened, and a middle-aged gentleman, who was tall and
thin, but who lost something of his height by a habit of
stooping, appeared on the step. Old Masey left me in a
moment. He muttered something about taking the doctor's
directions, and hastened across the road. The tall gentleman
spoke to him for a minute or two very seriously, probably
about the patient up-stairs, and it then seemed to me from
their gestures that I myself was the subject of some further
conversation between them. At all events, when old Masey
retired into the house, the doctor came across to where I
was standing, and addressed me with a very agreeable smile.
"John Masey tells me that you are
interested in the case of my poor friend, sir. I am now
going back to my house, and if you don't mind the trouble of
walking with me, I shall be happy to enlighten you as far as
I am able."
I hastened to make my apologies and express
my acknowledgments, and we set off together. When we had
reached the doctor's house and were seated in his study, I
ventured to inquire after the health of this poor gentleman.
"I am afraid there is no amendment, nor
any prospect of amendment," said the doctor. "Old
Masey has told you something of his strange condition, has
he not?"
"Yes, he has told me something," I
answered, "and he says you know all about it."
Dr. Garden looked very grave. "I don't
know all about it. I only know what happens when he comes
into the presence of a looking-glass. But as to the
circumstances which have led to his being haunted in the
strangest fashion that I ever heard of, I know no more of
them than you do."
"Haunted?" I repeated. "And in
the strangest fashion that you ever heard of?"
Dr. Garden smiled at my eagerness, seemed to
be collecting his thoughts, and presently went on:
"I made the acquaintance of Mr. Oswald
Strange in a curious way. It was on board of an Italian
steamer, bound from Civita Vecchia to Marseilles. We had
been travelling all night. In the morning I was shaving
myself in the cabin, when suddenly this man came behind me,
glanced for a moment into the small mirror before which I
was standing, and then, without a word of warning, tore it
from the nail, and dashed it to pieces at my feet. His face
was at first livid with passion--it seemed to me rather the
passion of fear than of anger--but it changed after a
moment, and he seemed ashamed of what he had done.
Well," continued the doctor, relapsing for a moment
into a smile, "of course I was in a devil of a rage. I
was operating on my underjaw, and the start the thing gave
me caused me to cut myself. Besides, altogether it seemed an
outrageous and insolent thing, and I gave it to poor Strange
in a style of language which I am sorry to think of now, but
which, I hope, was excusable at the time. As to the offender
himself, his confusion and regret, now that his passion was
at an end, disarmed me. He sent for the steward, and paid
most liberally for the damage done to the steamboat
property, explaining to him, and to some other passengers
who were present in the cabin, that what had happened had
been accidental. For me, however, he had another
explanation. Perhaps he felt that I must know it to have
been no accident-- "In my professional capacity I could not
help taking some interest in Mr. Strange. I did not
altogether lose sight of him after our sea-journey to
Marseilles was over. I found him a pleasant companion up to
a certain point; but I always felt that there was a reserve
about him. He was uncommunicative about his past life, and
especially would never allude to anything connected with his
travels or his residence in Italy, which, however, I could
make out had been a long one. He spoke Italian well, and
seemed familiar with the country, but disliked to talk about
it.
"During the time we spent together there
were seasons when he was so little himself, that I, with a
pretty large experience, was almost afraid to be with him.
His attacks were violent and sudden in the last degree; and
there was one most extraordinary feature connected with them
all:--some horrible association of ideas took possession
of him whenever he found himself before a looking-glass. And
after we had travelled together for a time, I dreaded the
sight of a mirror hanging harmlessly against a wall, or a
toilet-glass standing on a dressing- "Poor Strange was not always affected in
the same manner by a looking-glass. Sometimes it seemed to
madden him with fury; at other times, it appeared to turn
him to stone: remaining motionless and speechless as if
attacked by catalepsy. One night--the worst things always
happen at night, and oftener than one would think on stormy
nights--we arrived at a small town in the central district
of Auvergne: a place but little known, out of the line of
railways, and to which we had been drawn, partly by the
antiquarian attractions which the place possessed, and
partly by the beauty of the scenery. The weather had been
rather against us. The day had been dull and murky, the heat
stifling, and the sky had threatened mischief since the
morning. At sundown, these threats were fulfilled. The
thunderstorm, which had been all day coming up--as it seemed
to us, against the wind--burst over the place where we were
lodged, with very great violence.
"There are some practical- "It is hardly necessary to add that I
thought from time to time of my travelling- "There was a door between our rooms, and
the partition dividing them was not very solid; and yet I
had heard no sound since I parted from him which could
indicate that he was there at all, much less that he was
awake and stirring. I was in a mood, sir, which made this
silence terrible to me, and so many foolish fancies--as that
he was lying there dead, or in a fit, or what not--took
possession of me, that at last I could bear it no longer. I
went to the door, and, after listening, very attentively but
quite in vain, for any sound, I at last knocked pretty
sharply. There was no answer. Feeling that longer suspense
would be unendurable, I, without more ceremony, turned the
handle and went in.
"It was a great bare room, and so
imperfectly lighted by a single candle that it was almost
impossible-- "I must have seen all these things,
because I remember them so well now, but I do not know how I
could have seen them, for it seems to me that, from the
moment of my entering that room, the action of my senses and
of the faculties of my mind was held fast by the ghastly
figure which stood motionless before the looking- "How terrible it was! The weak light of
one candle standing on the table shone upon Strange's face,
lighting it from below, and throwing (as I now remember) his
shadow, vast and black, upon the wall behind him and upon
the ceiling overhead. He was leaning rather forward, with
his hands upon the table supporting him, and gazing into the
glass which stood before him with a horrible fixity. The
sweat was on his white face; his rigid features and his pale
lips showed in that feeble light were horrible, more than
words can tell, to look at. He was so completely stupefied
and lost, that the noise I had made in knocking and in
entering the room was unobserved by him. Not even when I
called him loudly by name did he move or did his face
change.
"What a vision of horror that was, in
the great dark empty room, in a silence that was something
more than negative, that ghastly figure frozen into stone by
some unexplained terror! And the silence and the stillness!
The very thunder had ceased now. My heart stood still with
fear. Then, moved by some instinctive feeling, under whose
influence I acted mechanically, I crept with slow steps
nearer and nearer to the table, and at last, half expecting
to see some spectre even more horrible than this which I saw
already, I looked over his shoulder into the
looking- "I have told you that even before I
entered my friend's room I had felt, all that night,
depressed and nervous. The necessity for action at this time
was, however, so obvious., and this man's agony made all
that I had felt, appear so trifling, that much of my own
discomfort seemed to leave me. I felt that I must
be strong.
"The face before me almost unmanned me.
The eyes which looked into mine were so scared with terror,
the lips--if I may say so--looked so speechless. The
wretched man gazed long into my face, and then, still
holding me by the arm, slowly, very slowly, turned his head.
I had gently tried to move him away from the looking-glass,
but he would not stir, and now he was looking into it as
fixedly as ever. I could bear this no longer, and, using
such force as was necessary, I drew him gradually away, and
got him to one of the chairs at the foot of the bed. 'Come!'
I said--after the long silence my voice, even to myself,
sounded strange and hollow--'come! You are over-tired, and
you feel the weather. Don't you think you ought to be in
bed? Suppose you lie down. Let me try my medical skill in
mixing you a composing draught.'
"He held my hand, and looked eagerly
into my eyes. 'I am better now,' he said, speaking at last
very faintly. Still he looked at me in that wistful way. It
seemed as if there were something that he wanted to do or
say, but had not sufficient resolution. At length he got up
from the chair to which I had led him, and beckoning me to
follow him, went across the room to the dressing- "'Look in there!' he said, in an almost
inaudible tone. He was supported, as before, by his hands
resting on the table, and could only bow with his head
towards the glass to intimate what he meant. 'Look in
there!' he repeated.
"I did as he asked me.
"'What do you see?' he asked next.
"'See?' I repeated, trying to speak as
cheerfully as I could, and describing the reflexion of his
own face as nearly as I could. 'I see a very, very pale face
with sunken cheeks----'
"'What?' he cried, with an alarm in his
voice which I could not understand.
"'With sunken cheeks,' I went on, 'and
two hollow eyes with large pupils.'
"I saw the reflexion of my friend's face
change, and felt his hand clutch my arm even more tightly
than he had done before. I stopped abruptly and looked round
at him. He did not turn his head towards me, but, gazing
still into the looking- "'What,' he stammered at last.
'Do--you--see it--too?'
"'See what?' I asked, quickly.
"'That face!' he cried, in accents of
horror. 'That face--which is not mine--and which--I SEE INSTEAD OF MINE--always!'
"I was struck speechless by the words.
In a moment this mystery was explained--but what an
explanation! Worse, a hundred times worse, than anything I
had imagined. What! Had this man lost the power of seeing
his own image as it was reflected there before him? and, in
its place, was there the image of another? Had he changed
reflexions with some other man? The frightfulness of the
thought struck me speechless for a time--then I saw how
false an impression my silence was conveying.
"'No, no, no!' I cried, as soon as I
could speak--'a hundred times, no! I see you, of course, and
only you. It was your face I attempted to describe, and no
other.'
"He seemed not to hear me. 'Why, look
there!' he said, in a low, indistinct voice, pointing to his
own image in the glass. 'Whose face do you see there?'
"'Why yours, of course.' And then, after
a moment, I added, 'Whose do you see?'
"He answered, like one in a trance,
'His--only his--always his!' He stood still a
moment, and then, with a loud and terrific scream, repeated
those words, 'ALWAYS HIS, ALWAYS
HIS,' and fell down in a fit before me.
"I knew what to do now. Here was a thing
which, at any rate, I could understand. I had with me my
usual small stock of medicines and surgical instruments, and
I did what was necessary: first to restore my unhappy
patient, and next to procure for him the rest he needed so
much. He was very ill--at death's door for some days--and I
could not leave him, though there was urgent need that I
should be back in London. When he began to mend, I sent over
to England for my servant--John Masey--whom I knew I could
trust. Acquainting him with the outlines of the case, I left
him in charge of my patient, with orders that he should be
brought over to this country as soon as he was fit to
travel.
"That awful scene was always before me.
I saw this devoted man day after day, with the eyes of my
imagination, sometimes destroying in his rage the harmless
looking-glass, which was the immediate cause of his
suffering, sometimes transfixed before the horrid image that
turned him to stone. I recollect coming upon him once when
we were stopping at a roadside inn, and seeing him stand so
by broad daylight. His back was turned towards me, and I
waited and watched him for nearly half an hour as he stood
there motionless and speechless, and appearing not to
breathe. I am not sure but that this apparition seen so by
daylight was more ghastly than that apparition seen in the
middle of the night, with the thunder rumbling among the
hills.
"Back in London in his own house, where
he could command in some sort the objects which should
surround him, poor Strange was better than he would have
been elsewhere. He seldom went out except at night, but once
or twice I have walked with him by daylight, and have seen
him terribly agitated when we have had to pass a shop in
which looking-glasses were exposed for sale.
"It is nearly a year now since my poor
friend followed me down to this place, to which I have
retired. For some months he has been daily getting weaker
and weaker, and a disease of the lungs has become developed
in him, which has brought him to his death-bed. I should
add, by-the-by, that John Masey has been his constant
companion ever since I brought them together, and I have
had, consequently, to look after a new servant.
"And now tell me," the doctor
added, bringing his tale to an end, "did you ever hear
a more miserable history, or was ever man haunted in a more
ghastly manner than this man?"
I was about to reply, when we heard a sound
of footsteps outside, and before I could speak old Masey
entered the room, in haste and disorder.
"I was just telling this
gentleman," the doctor said: not at the moment
observing old Masey's changed manner: "how you deserted
me to go over to your present master."
"Ah! sir," the man answered, in a
troubled voice, "I'm afraid he won't be my master
long."
The doctor was on his legs in a moment.
"What! Is he worse?"
"I think, sir, he is dying," said
the old man.
"Come with me, sir; you may be of use if
you can keep quiet." The doctor caught up his hat as he
addressed me in those words, and in a few minutes we had
reached The Compensation House. A few seconds more and we
were standing in a darkened room on the first floor, and I
saw lying on a bed before me--pale, emaciated and, as it
seemed, dying--the man whose story I had just heard.
He was lying with closed eyes when we came
into the room, and I had leisure to examine his features.
What a tale of misery they told! They were regular and
symmetrical in their arrangement, and not without
beauty--the beauty of exceeding refinement and delicacy.
Force there was none, and perhaps it was to the want of this
that the faults-- It sometimes--I think generally-- "Do you wish him to go? The gentleman
knows something of your sufferings, and is powerfully
interested in your case; but he will leave us, if you wish
it," the doctor said.
"No. Let him stay."
Seating myself out of sight, but where I
could both see and hear what passed, I waited for what
should follow. Dr. Garden and John Masey stood beside the
bed. There was a moment's pause.
"I want a looking-glass," said
Strange, without a word of preface.
We all started to hear him say those words.
"I am dying," said Strange;
"will you not grant me my request?"
Dr. Garden whispered to old Masey; and the
latter left the room. He was not absent long, having gone no
further than the next house. He held an oval-framed mirror
in his hand when he returned. A shudder passed through the
body of the sick man as he saw it.
"Put it down," he said,
faintly-- The sick man tried to raise himself a little.
"Prop me up," he said. "I speak with
difficulty--I have something to say."
They put pillows behind him, so as to raise
his head and body.
"I have presently a use for it," he
said, indicating the mirror. "I want to see----"
He stopped, and seemed to change his mind. He was sparing of
his words. "I want to tell you--all about it."
Again he was silent. Then he seemed to make a great effort,
and spoke once more, beginning very abruptly.
"I loved my wife fondly. I loved
her--her name was Lucy. She was English; but, alter we were
married, we lived long abroad--in Italy. She liked the
country, and I liked what she liked. She liked to draw, too,
and I got her a master. He was an Italian. I will not give
his name. We always called him 'the Master.' A treacherous
insidious man this was, and, under cover of his profession,
took advantage of his opportunities, and taught my wife to
love him--to love him.
"I am short of breath. I need not enter
into details as to how I found them out; but I did find them
out. We were away on a sketching expedition when I made my
discovery. My rage maddened me, and there was one at hand
who fomented my madness. My wife had a maid, who, it seemed,
had also loved this man--the Master--and had been
ill-treated and deserted by him. She told me all. She had
played the part of go-between "A frenzy took possession of me as I
listened to those words. I am naturally
vindictive-- The sick man stopped to take breath. It
seemed an hour, though it was probably not more than two
minutes, before he spoke again.
"I managed to get into his room
unobserved. Indeed, he was altogether absorbed in what he
was doing. He was sitting at the only table in the room,
writing at a travelling- "I stole up behind him as he sat and
wrote by the light of the candle. I looked over his shoulder
at the letter, and I read, 'Dearest Lucy, my love, my
darling.' As I read the words, I pulled the trigger of the
pistol I held in my right hand, and killed him--killed
him--but, before he died, he looked up once--not at me, but
at my image before him in the glass, and his face--such a
face--has been there--ever since, and mine--my face--is
gone!"
He fell back exhausted, and we all pressed
forward thinking that he must be dead, he lay so still.
But he had not yet passed away. He revived
under the influence of stimulants. He tried to speak, and
muttered indistinctly from time to time words of which we
could sometimes make no sense. We understood, however, that
he had been tried by an Italian tribunal, and had been found
guilty; but with such extenuating circumstances that his
sentence was commuted to imprisonment, during, we thought we
made out, two years. But we could not understand what he
said about his wife, though we gathered that she was still
alive, from something he whispered to the doctor of there
being provision made for her in his will.
He lay in a doze for something more than an
hour after he had told his tale, and then he woke up quite
suddenly, as he had done when we had first entered the room.
He looked round uneasily in all directions, until his eye
fell on the looking- "I want it," he said, hastily; but
I noticed that he did not shudder now as it was brought
near. When old Masey approached, holding it in his hand, and
crying like a child, Dr. Garden came forward and stood
between him and his master, taking the hand of poor Strange
in his.
"Is this wise?" he asked. "Is
it good, do you think, to revive this misery of your life
now, when it is so near its close? The chastisement of your
crime," he added, solemnly, "has been a terrible
one. Let us hope in God's mercy that your punishment is
over."
The dying man raised himself with a last
great effort, and looked up at the doctor with such an
expression on his face as none of us had seen on any face,
before.
"I do hope so," he said, faintly,
"but you must let me have my way in this--for if, now,
when I look, I see aright--once more--I shall then hope yet
more strongly--for I shall take it as a sign."
The doctor stood aside without another word,
when he heard the dying man speak thus, and the old servant
drew near, and, stooping over softly, held the looking-glass
before his master. Presently afterwards, we, who stood
around looking breathlessly at him, saw such a rapture upon
his face, as left no doubt upon our minds that the face
which had haunted him so long, had, in his last hour,
disappeared.
(End.)